Long Awaited Photos!


I promised I’d post some photos!! I’ve been too busy to write up the birth story etc. I know you will all forgive me. I’ll get to it though. In the meantime, here are a few photos. Keira has the dark hair and Kelsey is strawberry. I am so in love with them. They have been really good so far. My mom left yesterday so I was solo for the first time as DH had to work second shift… We are off to the pedi today for a weight check.

Will update when time allows!

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My Miracles Are Here!!

Just a quick announcement that my girls are here!! They were born yesterday at 10:53am and 10:54am via csection after an unproductive 42 hour induction. Keira Elizabeth was born first and weighs 6lbs 4 oz and Kelsey Margaret followed at 5lbs 11 oz. Both girls are perfect and healthy!! Kelsey has strawberry red hair!! Keira’s is a pretty light brown. They are gorgeous and I’m just so in love!!

I’ll update with the full crazy birth story when I can as well as post a photo.

I’m finally a mama!!!!

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No Rain in Sight!

imageJust had to share!! No call bumping us yet so the 3 hr countdown to the hospital is on 🙂

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Induction Begins Tomorrow (hopefully)…

I hope this is my last post before I’m announcing my baby girls’ arrival!! I saw the MFM yesterday and had my last BPP. The girls were fine on the BPP–Baby A is still head down and low. Baby B is still breech and shoved in a corner on my right side. Baby A is taking up her space! My MFM finally did a cervical check and I’m not dilated at all… In fact, he did this evil sort of laugh saying to be prepared for the induction to take a “few” days.. (Part of that was also for DH’s benefit who thinks an induction takes 15 mins…)

My BP returned to normal at 112/74. I have no signs of labor even after the rough cervical check. By the way, holy hell, those hurt! How on earth am I pushing two babies out of my vag??? The MFM also warned me that it’s possible that I get a call bumping me from tomorrow if too many women are in active labor since I’m deemed “elective”.. How on earth I’m elective at 38 + 1 with twins is beyond me. When I first saw the doctor yesterday I said “Get these babies out of me”! As others have pointed out, the infertile in us wants nothing more than the embryos to stick and how ironic it is to make it to the very end and beg for them to be taken out!

Right now, the plan is to register at the hospital at 4pm tomorrow. 25 hours! I’m guessing the girls won’t be born until Friday…

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Sharing An Article on Embryo Adoption

Just a quick post to share an article that appeared on People dot com today. It chronicles the story of one of my IF friends I’ve “met” in my journey!! It is about embryo adoption. I’m so proud of her to have the guts to share her family’s story on a national level.


I see the doctor this afternoon and have my last BPP! I’ll update when I can. 2 more days to induction!!

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The Final Week!!

I will report to the hospital to start the induction process in exactly one week and one hour!!! It is so hard to believe that we are down to one week after 4 years, 4 months of TTC which was comprised of 5 IUIs, 8 IVFs, 2 miscarriages, 2 surgeries, countless injections, 6 different REs in 5 different states, 4 different donors and a boatload of money and tears. I’m overwhelmed with emotions I can’t even describe. To get the privilege of bringing two babies home after the rollercoaster we’ve been on is nothing short of amazing!!

I don’t think the girls will come early. They seem to be quite content in utero. I saw the MFM on Monday and my BP was ok–124/84–and no protein in urine. I had a rough day on Sunday and Monday because I wasn’t able to sleep and I felt like I was going to fall when I tried to walk. My left foot is quite swollen and it didn’t feel like it could support my weight. I don’t feel safe driving myself at this point so I asked DH to leave work and take me to my appointment. The MFM wasn’t very sympathetic to my pleas to move up the induction date. He said there was no medical reason to and basically to “suck it up”… Easy for you to say buddy… Fortunately, he approved of taking Benadryl and I was able to sleep fairly well (for me at this point) in the recliner. I haven’t slept in a bed for several weeks. I felt a lot better yesterday. DH was home for Veteran’s Day and he did all sorts of stuff that I just can’t physically do anymore. I’m happy to say that we actually have a crib put together and it’s in the girls’ room! The queen bed is gone (we gave it to DH’s 16 year old nephew on Sunday who was sleeping in a twin bed at 6’3” tall). It’s starting to look like a nursery.

Now for some random coincidences and musings:
1) my donor was retrieved exactly one year ago today. I thought it would have been a cool birthday but it’s not going to happen today..
2) I matched with the donor exactly a year ago tomorrow.
3) DH and I had a housewarming party 4 years ago tomorrow. We had been TTC for 4 months at that time and I “thought” I had implantation bleeding and that the party would be my last cocktails for a while. Umm, we know that didn’t happen. Anyway, I had bought a bunch of pumpkin napkins and paper plates for the party at the Christmas Tree Shop (if you aren’t familiar with the store, it’s a mishmash of various crap but also random other things for very cheap…) I had no idea on how much to buy for the party. I bought entirely too much paper goods and it’s become a joke in my family because 4 years later I still have pumpkin napkins left! Last summer, we sold the house where we had the housewarming party. I had some open pumpkins napkins which I brought to our Cape Cod rental house to use up (my family came to the beach to visit and made fun of pumpkin napkins in August). Well, I just put the very last package of pumpkin napkins in the napkin holder!!! If someone had told me 4 years ago that I would not have a baby until the last pumpkin napkin was used, I would have jumped off a building…. Or made sure that I bought a lot less napkins!

One week.. One week!!!!

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BP Update

I’m home!! My BP was 3 points lower than Monday so they let me leave. My urine showed just a trace of protein. I go back again on Monday to re-check it again. DH had taken today off in case I didn’t come home or had to spend hours in L&D getting monitored. Since I was released, I got him to do a slew of errands I haven’t been up for this week. I had DH do most of them while I waited in the car but we grabbed lunch out which I haven’t done in weeks. I did go into Target and I think I overdid it. My poor feet.. It’s almost 1am and of course I can’t sleep. I’m in the recliner with the TV on…

I switched to heparin today (from lovenox). What a debacle. I should have just had the MFM’s office send the prescription to the hospital pharmacy as they stock it since there are so many high risk patients on it. But I didn’t because I didn’t want to pay for parking to pick it up. I figured “C VS” was easier. Wrong!! The script was sent on Wednesday. I did not get a call from the pharmacy like I usually get saying it was filled. I called first thing yesterday and was told that they’d gave to order it because they didn’t have the concentration that was requested. The script was for .5ml of 20000units twice a day. I was told shipments come in at 2pm. Since DH and I were out, he ran in to pick it up while I stayed in the car because I was wiped out. After a long wait, DH comes out empty handed. They didn’t get any in the shipment but they faxed the script to another C VS the next town over. DH got a hard copy of the script “just in case”. We drive to the next town (where we had actually just been of course) DH goes inside and eventually comes out. They didn’t get the fax so it will be 30 mins to fill. We did another errand in between and DH does back in at 3:30. At 4:15, he still hasn’t come out and I really needed a bathroom. I finally see him come outside, again empty handed. It turns out they don’t have the 20000 iu concentration either and that the tech who called over from the first store said 10000iu… They were trying to reach my doctor –yeah, it’s 4:30 on a Friday– good luck with that. I wanted the script to just get faxed to the hospital pharmacy but I needed a bathroom first. DH asked inside and they let me use the one in the back of the store. When I came out, the pharmacist says they actually reached my doctor who approved a change to 1ml of 10000iu. Fine. I’ll inject more liquid. Whatever. I’m tired and want to go rest. But they didn’t have the correct gauge of syringe (I wanted insulin needles). I was supposed to get 30 gauge 1/2 inch but they didn’t have them. He said he’d look for 31 gauge– fine, even thinner needle. Great. But he came back with 29 gauge. Whatever. It’s fine. He waived the charge for the prescription because of the entire debacle (my copay is just $10 but I’ll take anything for free).

I went to do the first shot at 9:30 tonight. I’m drawing up the liquid and wondering why there is still so much in the vial and I have no more room in the syringe. Yup, they gave .5ml syringes when I need to inject 1ml!! I can’t believe I didn’t catch that…So I had to inject myself twice. Ummm, that would be 4 times a day!! Nothing I can do about it right now. I don’t know that I’m up for driving myself tomorrow to deal with it (DH is working).. I feel a bit unsafe driving at this stage because my range of motion is very limited.

I keep going back and forth about writing about something else that happened this week. DH called me earlier in the week and said “guess who is pregnant?” I made a few guesses which were wrong so I finally said, just tell me. I have no more guesses. I was shocked at the answer. It’s one of DH’s friends/co-worker and his girlfriend. The thing is, I know she’s several years older than me (he’s a lot younger). My immediate thought was that she has to be 45 (at least) and how is that possible (without donor eggs…) Yeah, yeah I know there are some natural pregnancies at that age but come on, it’s rare. But I didn’t think they would have used donor eggs. My reasons for that assumption is first that they aren’t married and the second being the cost factor. Even though a natural pregnancy “shouldn’t” annoy me at this point where I’m almost to single digits days to give birth, it did annoy me! It shouldn’t because if I had ever had a natural pregnancy, I wouldn’t be getting the babies I’m about to get and I want these specific babies. These are the babies that were meant for me to raise. But it still is frustrating to hear a story of someone you know who isn’t even trying to get pregnant and having one at an age that 98% of women can’t….

Fast forward to today when we were at lunch. Another guy that DH knows stopped in the same place. I haven’t seen him in many months and am quite obviously pregnant. So of course we talked about it. The conversation turns to this other couple and he says “do you know the story behind it?” I’m nosy as hell and said no, what the story? Turns out this couple did “plan” the pregnancy and tried to do IVF but was told no because of her age. And, drum roll, they traveled out of the country for treatment. I’m not sure the other guy “understood” what this meant but I know it means they used DE! I had a vague memory of a post on FB where they were out of the country and DH agreed with me that they went to a country that I know is well known for DE… It also made sense in terns of the cost factor as DE is much less expensive abroad than in the states. I feel so much better knowing this info. It’s trite and juvenile but it makes me feel better…

Guess that’s it for right now..

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